This question kept stricken me: “I can’t handle this uncertainty anymore, why don’t God tell me or give me a sign… what should I do?” It’s my friend’s question. I couldn’t give her the answer since I’m not God, not even close. *smile*
I think one point or another in our lives we may come to this tormenting moment. We question our decision… whether it’s the right one, or how to make the right one. Isn’t it nice if we know for sure how our lives will unfold? Isn’t it nice to know the impact of our decision? Have you ever thought about it?
Uncertainty. It’s the big word that we fear. We fear of the mystery and insecurity it presents to us. Will it be good? Will it be bad? Can we handle it? Or, will it crush us?
Uncertainty. It has its place in the future. We don’t know what’s in the future and what it will bring to us, and yet we’re always worried about its mystery and uncertainty. Well, I know on some cases we have parameters to predict the future… but many steps and decisions in nature and life always surprise us and keep us on the edge.
If you want certainty then you have it. It’s in your present time. This is the one we know for sure. This moment. We are in full control of this moment. But most of the times we just ignore it.
I recalled an old couple told me one good and amusing example on uncertainty. “In our time when we find someone that we like, we’d get married, and didn’t bother so much about what the future would bring to us. And yet, we stayed married until now. However, your generation find it very hard to decide on this thing and almost everything in life. Your generation are always worried about the future.”
When I looked back I’ve found so many uncertainties in my life, from changing jobs to changing place to live—and yet I took those ‘mysterious’ travels. My friends asked me when I decided to move to Canada: “Aren’t you afraid to move to a faraway place you don’t know, with no friends and relatives to support you, and have to start all over again?” I couldn’t answer their questions because I knew I had this fear in my heart—fear of the unknown, the uncertainty, and the mystery. I was afraid, no doubt about it. I find one assurance though—my faith in Him. I believe in every cell of my soul that even in my most solitary moment He’s with me.
I’ve taken a number of voyages through the journey in this life—sometimes it’s a roller-coaster ride, at other times were bumpy or smooth rides. I enjoyed all the voyages and I thank Him, my companion, for all of these rides.
And for you my dear friend, I still don’t know the answer to your question. My advice: search your heart—you’ll find the answer sooner or later.
“Faith means living with uncertainty – feeling your way through life, letting your heart guide you like a lantern in the dark.”
~ Dan Millman ~
“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”
~ Reinhold Niebuhr ~