I am not sure how to start about writing this subject. This thought has been bothering me since I was too focused and deep involved with my work. I love my current job – personally it’s not a job for me, but it’s more of a mission to rescue and reverse back a business unit. In my mind I have only this job and all the thought around and behind every move I would like to put together to make the business up and running well again. I thought this state of ‘emergency’ is going to be temporary, but, hey… I don’t think so. There are a lot of things going on and there are also a lot of ‘what ifs’ to weigh on from our current business situation and I am not ready to compromise when I am committed. It has been taking me away from my parents and regular healthy lifestyle.
The one-day-and-two-night stretch I had with my sister, Mandy, and Matthew has also added on this thought of ‘whether I spend enough time with my family and dear friends?’ I know my sister is tired of juggling her working life and her domestic life while her husband is working in Thailand in the past half year. I am proud of her – she has managed it well. The children are always jumping around and screaming ‘mama’ when she gets home. She always informs the day-to-day life to her husband and my brother-in-law always finds the time to call her and the children. I love to see and hear Matthew talking on the phone with his dad *smile*. I certainly didn’t see these routines as boring obligation but as love commitment.
Matthew woke me up on Saturday morning. He immediately asked me to play with him *smile*. Then, I went with my sister to accompany Mandy to her swimming lesson on Saturday morning. Mandy has shown a lot of progress since the last time I saw her in her swimming lesson. I really enjoyed this morning, had breakfast with my sister, had some small talks while we’re reading the papers and sometimes looking at Mandy in the water. Then, I just followed her weekend routines – dropping off some laundry at River Valley, grocery shopping in Fair Price at Killiney, accompanying Mandy to her catechism class at the Blessed Sacrament Church. I had some little shopping, books (as usual), wine for my father, and whole oats for my mother. I played congklak with Mandy and Matthew. I had dinner with all of them. My sister then showed us Thea’s picture. Thea is my niece from my sister in Toronto. We all talked how cute and big she is *smile*. By early January next year I’m going to have a bundle of joy from my younger brother.
I truly don’t envy people with power and riches. I do believe when one increases one’s power and possessions one will always deny one’s ordinariness. Ah, I probably am trapped in this philosophical thought…
Then, here comes again an e-mail about Mother Teresa from my dear friend. Thank you to remind me my friend… to remind me to stop and smell the roses, to enjoy the extraordinary of ordinary life, before it’s a little too late.
A Tribute to Mother Teresa
Mother Teresa: In Her Own Words
“Do not wait for leaders; do it alone, person to person.”
Mother Teresa taught us by her example what it really means to ‘live’ the Gospel.
“I think today the world is upside down, and is suffering so much because there is so very little love in the home, and in family life. We have no time for our children, we have no time for each other, there is no time to enjoy each other.”
“Love begins at home; love lives at home, and that is why there is so much suffering and so much unhappiness in the world today. … Everybody today seems to be in such a terrible rush, anxious for greater developments and greater riches and so on, so that children have very little time for their parents. Parents have very little time for each other, and in the home begins the disruption of peace of the world.”
“I see God in every human being. When I wash the leper’s wounds, I feel I am nursing the Lord himself. Is it not a beautiful experience?” — 1974 interview
“When I see waste here, I feel angry on the inside. I don’t approve of myself getting angry. But it’s something you can’t help after seeing Ethiopia.” — Washington 1984
“The most terrible poverty is loneliness and the feeling of being unloved.”
“The biggest disease today is not leprosy or tuberculosis, but rather the feeling of being unwanted.”
“There is more hunger in the world for love and appreciation than for bread.”
“We think sometimes that poverty is only being hungry, naked and homelessness. The poverty of being unwanted, unloved, and uncared for is the greatest poverty. We must start in our own homes to remedy this kind of poverty.”
“I have never been in a war before, but I have seen famine and death. I was asking (myself), ‘What do they feel when they do this?’ I don’t understand it. They are all children of God. Why do they do it? I don’t understand.” — Beirut 1982, during fighting between the Israeli army and Palestinian guerillas
“Please choose the way of peace. … In the short term there may be winners and losers in this war that we all dread. But that never can, nor never will justify the suffering, pain and loss of life your weapons will cause.” — Letter to U.S. President George Bush and Iraqi President Saddam Hussein, January 1991
“Abortion is murder in the womb. … A child is a gift of God. If you do not want him, give him to me.”
“The greatest destroyer of peace is abortion because if a mother can kill her own child, what left is for me to kill you and you to kill me? There’s nothing in between.”
“It is a poverty to decide that a child must die so that you may live as you wish.”
On Her Life’s Work
“We ourselves feel that what we are doing is just a drop in the ocean. But the ocean would be less because of that missing drop.”
“The other day I dreamed that I wasn at the gate of heaven. And St. Peter said, ‘Go back to Earth. There are no slums up here.’” — quoted as telling Prince Michael of Greece in 1996
“The miracle is not that we do this work, but we are happy to do it.”
“If you judge people, you have no time to love them.”
“I try to give the poor people for love the rich could get for money. No, I wouldn’t touch a leper for a thousand pounds; yet I willingly cure him for the love of God.”
“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.”
“I am not sure exactly what heaven will be like, but I do know that when we die and it comes time for God to judge us, He will NOT ask, how many good things have you done in your life?, rather He will ask, how much LOVE did you put into what you did?“
“Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat.”
“Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired.”
“Every time you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing.”
“Good works are links that form a chain of love.”
On Serving God
“Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies.”
“Each of them is Jesus in disguise.”
“I am a little pencil in the hand of writing God who is sending a love letter to the world.”
“I do not pray for success, I ask for faithfulness.”
“I know God will not give me anything I can’t handle. I just wish that He didn’t trust me so much.”
“Many people mistake our work for our vocation. Our vocation is the love of Jesus.”
“Sweetest Lord, make me appreciative of the dignity of my high vocation, and its many responsibilities. Never permit me to disgrace it by giving way to coldness, unkindness, or impayience.”
“There should be less talk; a preaching point is not a meeting point. What do you do then? Take a broom and clean someone’s house. That says enough.”
“In this life we cannot do great things. We can only do small things with great love.”
“Words which do not give the light of Christ increase the darkness.”
“Let us not be satisfied with just giving money. Money is not enough, money can be got, but they need your hearts to love them. So, spread your love everywhere you go.”
“We need to find God, and He cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature — trees, flowers, grass grow in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence… We need silence to be able to touch souls.”
“At the end of our lives, we will not be judged by how many diplomas we have received, how much money we have made or how many great things we have done. We will be judged by ‘I was hungry and you gave me food to eat. I was naked and you clothed me. I was homeless and you took me in’.”
Jesus is my God.
Jesus is my husband.
Jesus is my Life.
Jesus is my only Love.
Jesus is my All!
If you haven’t yet received Jesus into your heart, you can do it now by repeating this little prayer:
“Dear Jesus, I believe you are the Son of God and my Saviour. I need your love to cleanse me from my mistakes and wrongdoings. I need your light to drive away all darkness. I need your peace to fill and satisfy my heart. I now open the door of my heart and ask You to please come into my life and give me Ypur gift of eternal life. Amen.”
“If we want a love message to be heard, it has got to be sent out. To keep a lamp burning. we have to keep putting oil in it.”