Today’s the 31st of December 2006. I had lunch with my brother and my very pregnant sister-in-law at Dinar, a seafood restaurant in Pluit area. It’s value for money, good food at reasonable price. My parents are in a trip to Australia. So, I’ll be welcoming 2007 by myself, two maids, and Ringo (our faithful but somewhat vicious dog).
I love this time of year… although I’m not sure why. I read several articles and books, just to get my mind out of my work. I also spent the time by calling or meeting old friends and catching up on things in our life. I know I still have to prepare several numbers of plans for 2007 including the targets, steps, timeline, etc.
Today’s the 31st of December 2006, and it’s exactly one year and six months I’ve lived in the country. I wonder why I could stand this long living in this country after a wonderful life in Canada. Nancy asked me whether I’ll return to Toronto or I’ll stay in the country – I told her I will return to Toronto for a visit, for sure.
I miss a chapter of my life there – a life that prepared me to be the person that I am today. I miss my niece, Thea (and her mom, of course). I was once thinking that I’d baby sit and take care of her and that she’d love me more than her mom, he, he,… I miss my multi-cultural, multi-ethnic, multi-faith friends. I miss the jazz festivals. I miss the public parks, the public libraries. I miss the open space and the vast outdoors. I miss the skating ring in front of City Hall. I miss the free health care. I miss the soccer field nearby my condominium. I miss all the activities, be it for charities, for NGOs, or for work. I miss the spring, fall, and winter – the smell of its crisp air. I miss the dirty slush after snowfall. I miss the late night driving from the Lo’s house. I miss Harbor Front, Mel Lastman Square, Eaton Centre, even Loblaws, T&T, and Uncle Timmy (Tim Hortons, a Canada’s largest coffee and doughnut store chain). I miss my trio mermaids, he, he,… we used to plan and do things together. I miss the little chapel on the back of St. Baylon Church – I used to sit there several times a week just to draw some strength from Him and be near Him. I miss a lot of things there…
But,… I am just happy here and now. I told it to Nancy, and she said that it might mean to be this way.
I accomplished a lot of things. I believe I can do more and will do more – and it’s not only because of me and the reward I will get but also for the betterment of others and our environment.
Of course there were some disappointment and sadness – but I learnt to accept them and be happy with what the disappointment and sadness present to me. Well, it’s not that bad after all.
In my heart I have this feeling of missing the chapter of my life in Canada but at the same time I also have this feeling of gaining much more in Indonesia. And, I want to scream loudly that I am happy *smile*.
Now let’s talk about my New Year’s resolution: I want to do more exercise. I hope I can keep this one *smile*. I need the strength to make it happen though… (I’m very lazy when it comes to exercise, whereas in fact I jogged regularly in Toronto).
For all my friends in Indonesia, Canada and Japan, I wish you wonderful years ahead. I miss you all and I wish I could meet you in person.
(A Song by Letto)
Dan aku mulai takut terbawa cinta
Menghirup rindu yang sesakkan dada
Jalanku hampa dan kusentuh dia
Terasa hangat oh didalam hati
Kupegang erat dan kuhalangi waktu
Tak urung jua kulihatnya pergi
Tak pernah kuragu dan slalu kuingat
Kerlingan matamu dan sentuhan hangat
Ku saat itu mencari makna
Tumbuhkan rasa yg sesakkan dada
Kau datang dan pergi oh begitu saja
Semua kutrima apa adanya
Mata terpejam dan hati menggumam
Di ruang rindu kita bertemu
… and let’s rock the 2007!!